I just think of what if he’s been reading my fucking senseless blogs here. Oh my good Lord, I’m fucked up. I just hope he doesn’t care about me anymore because I don’t even know now how to face him if he’d really been reading these notes. (joke, I still know how, of course) I’m going to die but yeah, I’m risking because typing my feelings away is really helpful in keeping or maybe in controlling my actions and of course my feelings. Lol I’m so doomed. I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m so hopeless hahaha. I hope someday someone will help me get through this fucking stage. BUT YEAH I’M FINE.